Being righteous in God's eyes..
Posted by Nie Cristal on Thursday, June 4, 2009
Under: Testimony
"And the prayer offered in faith will make the sick person well; the Lord will raise him up. If he has sinned, he will be forgiven. Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous man is powerful and effective." ~ James 5:15-16
The last sentence in the verse makes me realized why some of my prayers before this weren't answered: because I was unrighteous and self-centered. There was something shameful hidden in my life, and I was living a double life. I always thought I had repented, yet I continued the same mistake. A sister in Christ spoke to me about it, yet I took it lightly, and continued driving my way on the crooked path.
Just before I could knocked on the wall, God Himself pulled my break, and saved me all for once. I slowly took the step to be healed. Tough, very tough. Because it didn't involve me alone. To repent, I had to think of the people other than me that involved. And I chose to leave and walk towards God's light, bringing that hidden shame into the glory of God, alone.
To the eyes of the world, I was selfish because I left. But deep inside me I knew that was the best thing I could do for God, even if it means sacrificing relationships. "The best time to repent is now, don't drag and wait till things get worse. Nothing that falls short of God's glory can turn out to be better to God in any way." That was the urge by my faith within me.
Until I learned to walk in the light again; until I left the second life; until I let God cleanse and heal me, I could not serve Him like how I am today. I praise God for everyone whom He has used to save me. Though I know today somewhere in this world, there is someone who still couldn't forgive me for my 'selfishness', but I pray that God will also grant His healing, like how He is granting me mine.
Now I really believe that God works in and for righteous lives. Don't complain when God intervenes your life. Instead, pray that He always gets Himself involved in everything we do. So that we are alert to not give in to the temptations upon this sinful nature of ours.
The last sentence in the verse makes me realized why some of my prayers before this weren't answered: because I was unrighteous and self-centered. There was something shameful hidden in my life, and I was living a double life. I always thought I had repented, yet I continued the same mistake. A sister in Christ spoke to me about it, yet I took it lightly, and continued driving my way on the crooked path.
Just before I could knocked on the wall, God Himself pulled my break, and saved me all for once. I slowly took the step to be healed. Tough, very tough. Because it didn't involve me alone. To repent, I had to think of the people other than me that involved. And I chose to leave and walk towards God's light, bringing that hidden shame into the glory of God, alone.
To the eyes of the world, I was selfish because I left. But deep inside me I knew that was the best thing I could do for God, even if it means sacrificing relationships. "The best time to repent is now, don't drag and wait till things get worse. Nothing that falls short of God's glory can turn out to be better to God in any way." That was the urge by my faith within me.
Until I learned to walk in the light again; until I left the second life; until I let God cleanse and heal me, I could not serve Him like how I am today. I praise God for everyone whom He has used to save me. Though I know today somewhere in this world, there is someone who still couldn't forgive me for my 'selfishness', but I pray that God will also grant His healing, like how He is granting me mine.
Now I really believe that God works in and for righteous lives. Don't complain when God intervenes your life. Instead, pray that He always gets Himself involved in everything we do. So that we are alert to not give in to the temptations upon this sinful nature of ours.
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